Recently, I spent a few weeks sick in the bed. Out for the count. The baby was sick and the then boom, so was I. Her and I spent two weeks back and forth sick and in the bed. When I tell you that life has been hard on me before, but this level of hard, I truly don’t think I was prepared for it. The first week of this sickness started on our trip to New Jersey. My husband decided to take us with him to his training in Jersey and although we were super excited, the first day in the hotel, baby had a fever and cried all night. This continued the entire trip. Instead of lounging by the pool and hanging out on the town or even getting the chance to play in the snow, we were bedridden. Stuck to the four walls of the hotel room.
I couldn’t wait to get home and be done with that trip. It was miserable to say the lease. The last day, I was so unbearably sick that I am unsure how I managed the 6 hour drive home. Once we got home, I spent the next five days, in the bed.
While spending this time alone in bed sick, it made me truly uncover and think about how grateful I am for health. What also uncovered for me in understanding was in my weakness, the only strength I pulled from was from God. I still struggled to go to him in prayer and read my bible but it was all I had. The hope I had was in Him. Where else could I turn to? As I cried out to him in pain, He gave me rest. As I felt alone in my sickness, He brought me a close friend with a care package and food to help my husband feed me and the kids. As I cried out to him in sadness, He brought me a husband who held me and wiped away the tears. I couldn’t have asked for any of these, all I prayed for was help. God provided.
In my life, I have witnessed a lot of heartbreak, difficulties and true tribulations. It wasn’t till the end of 2021, after the loss of my unborn child where I realized why these difficult life moments were so important. Our Father in Heaven loves us so much that he sent his son to die for us so that we may be in intimate relationship with Him. Matthew 11:28 shows us this divine understanding. Not only is Jesus sharing with us that it is through him you get to the Father but that even more importantly the burdens of life are His to hold onto and wants us to give them to Him so that we may find rest.
Life gets hard but God wants your pain. Are you using these moments of pain to talk to Him more, or learn more of who he is by reading your bible? Or are you simply just hurting and lost. Either way, know you aren’t alone. I’ve been in both seats and as I share this brief recent moments of pain I went through, I hope this inspires you to know that God loves you and wants to take away your pain. Seek the Kingdom first! He is there waiting for you!!!!
